My reason for living

Seven on Sunday
1. Well A lot has changed in 2 weeks. The major one for me is that Mike and I are not seeing or talking anymore. Call it irreconcilable differences. He decided that I should quit talking to Brendan and that my relationship with the Cox family should be kept at a distance now that Brendan and I are divorced. So anyone who knows me knows that if you try to tell me what not to do it will make me mad. I Love the coxes and they are my family forever:). Also he thought I talked to my dad too much. Oh well it's good to find things out before any major commitments are made.

2. Brendan came up this last week for a few days. had some national guard classes. So it was good for the kids to see him so much the last few weeks. We were down there over valentine's weekend. took the kids swimming with their cousins and eat pizza with the family. They had so much fun with grandpa and uncle wade to swimming. Thanks for a great weekend!

3. Parent teacher conferences were last week too. Mackenzie is doing great in school except for writing. We couldn't figure out why her language grade was down. she had all exceeds requirements but in writing. Well we got it straightened out, Her writing grade is 50% of her language grade. each test has writing portions. Well if you know Mackenzie she hates writing with a passion. She can tell you exactly what to write down but she doesn't write it on her tests. 5 years later and we are still dealing with her hate of writing. We love her anyways.

4. Kyle is pooping more in the toilet now. So we are almost 100% trained. Brevan is starting to show some interest now too. so hopefully by this summer we will be completely out of diapers. YEA!!!

5. We had a good week this week over. A bit stressful but things got resolved. Brendan has agreed to stay elsewhere when he visits the kids here. It has become to emotional to have him here for me. Then the kids wonder why he is leaving again. It has been good for transitioning but now we need them to know reality. I am sure it will be just fine.

6. This weekend was tons of fun. My brother Sean is here from Texas for a while. I also went out with a good friend who moved here a couple of months ago. We grew up together in Indiana. Brian is a good man and the kids love him, but I am in no way ready for a relationship. Friends are good especially those who understand your situation. It was tons of fun watching the twins and Brian together. Reminded me of our childhood. I haven't laughed that much in months. Very therapeutic:).

7. Thought for the week. I read an article in the ensign titled, " I ran to him." About a son who runs and his father is always at every race, but he stands in an different place. It's a place where his son would want to quit but he would be at that leg of the race to tell him to go on and he could do it. It wasn't the beginning or the end but where he would be needed the most. That is how our Heavenly Father is. When things are good he is there and he will be there at the end too, but when we cannot go on and our burdens seem the heaviest that is where the Savior and our Father in Heaven are the most to carry us through. I am thankful for the gospel especially these past months when I have felt completely alone at times. It's easy to put on a smile and tell people you are fine, but the nights are hard and only the comfort of the Holy Ghost are there. One more thing that made me feel like I am doing things right, brevan said yesterday before church, " Kyle we are going to church. The Holy Ghost is there right mommy?" It made my heart melt to know I am teaching them and they are understanding something. So here's to us all Keep the Faith@